Seasons

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I've been in my feelings today. My oldest is graduating in a month and some days I deal better than others. I'm so happy and proud of her. She's so smart and beautiful and perfect. But, I'm sad because it's over. She's not a child anymore. She will never again ask me to read her a bedtime story or recite Shrek on a long car ride. She will never again reach up to me with little hands wanting to be picked up. That part of her life is over and now she will transition into adulthood. I made mistakes and I've done my best to bring her up. One thing is sure  though. She knows I love her, no matter what, and I suppose, that is most important.
As I sat here in my recliner lamenting this situation, my youngest came to me and reached up to be held, then fell asleep in my arms.
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